Not What I Expected/An Interesting Turn of Events

  So today, I had it completely mapped out what I was going to write.  My hands were eager to spill out onto the blank world wide web exactly what thoughts rambling around in my head needed to be shared with everyone.  Then, I had to suddenly take a break and drop someone off somewhere.  While I was on my way back, I just happened to have my Hillsong Live CD playing.  So i turned the dial to track no. 7 and I listened.  Thinking about the words and humming softly to myself.  My thoughts turned to my life the past couple of months.  I've been waiting for something that would inspire me to draw closer to God.  An experience that would cause His spirit to fill me and just light me up and set me aglow for all the world to see.  Sometimes I astonish myself with how little I think things through.

  It's been said forever that God is a relational being.  God gave his only Son so that he could have a personal relationship with you.  God desires to be close to you more than anything.  He loves you.  Those sentences have been ringing in my ears since the moment I heard them...and I thought I understood them.  Still, here I was waiting for him to do something.  Then it occurred to me as I'm listening to Brooke Fraser Ligertwood sing these words:

May my prayer like incense rise before You

The lifting of my hands as sacrifice

Oh Lord Jesus turn Your eyes upon me

For I know there is mercy in Your sight

Your statutes are my heritage forever

My heart is set on keeping Your decrees

Please still my anxious urge toward rebellion

Let Love keep my will upon its knees

To all creation I can see a limit

But Your commands are boundless and have none

So Your Word is my joy and meditation

From the rising to the setting of the sun

All Your ways are loving and are faithful

The road is narrow but Your burden light

Because You gladly lean to lead the humble

I shall gladly kneel to leave my pride

  Halei.  Relationships are work.  You have to work with God slowly and with perseverance to change yourself.  Rome wasn't built in a day.  I'm sure at this point other drivers on the road were pointing at me with wide open mouths, ogling at the brilliantly illuminated light bulb floating above my head. Have you ever had a moment where you truly understood something that you already understood?  Yeah...me too.

  Then the music shifted.  The drums started to beat heavier, the voices were singing in unison, and the Holy Spirit gave me a vision.  I was standing on a giant hill, I could see everything.  My hair was blowing behind me in the wind looking gloriously unkempt.  My face was beautiful despite my wild appearance.  I looked pure and natural and I was glowing.  Beams of sparkly light were shooting from my body and they shined light on everything below me.  My arms were in the air and I sang just like the people in the song 

Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You
Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You

  Whenever think of who I am, I always see the wild girl on top of the hill with her hair flying helter skelter.  This girl was soo much more beautiful and more pure and natural and she was GLOWING!!!  I wanted to be her so badly. 


I realized I can be her.  If I work relationally with God, If I stop sitting around waiting for him to just make me into that, I can be her.  I want to share this experience with you guys and for you to listen to the song and go back and read this entry again while its playing.  Then at the last part ask Him to show you your potential...what you could be.  Ask Him to show you, your very own version of what He showed me.  If you want, and I'd really appreciate it if you did, post a comment of what He showed you.  You can do it anonymously even.  


HERE IS THE SONG



Click on the big words right above this sentence. 


I am anxious to hear what the result of this experiment is.  Also it helps if you turn up the volume really loud. 


Have a fabulous Thursday.