Saturday, March 26, 2011

TAKE HEART

  Do you ever go through a dark period?  When you feel cold and dead inside, like nothing will ever go right again or the sun won't rise again tomorrow?  Your just stuck in this darkness;  this yucky, funky, depressed, comatose state, where you feel half alive?  Like something inside you is dead?  
 
Yeah....sometimes I feel that way too. 
Not right now.  But I have before.  
It womps.  Big time.  

  If the person that is feeling that way is you, I want to personally say, I'm sorry, to you.  If a person made you feel that way, they don't have the right to, and it wasn't okay for them to do that.  If your circumstances made you feel that way, there is hope at the end, I promise.

  Can I tell you something else?  God is always faithful to follow through on His promises.  I am dead serious.  If God tells you something you can bet your bottom dollar He will do it.  It doesn't always seem that way but thats because we can't always see the way that He is getting things done....sometimes the way that He fulfilled the promise is so small that it goes easily overlooked.  Or, He's just waiting until the perfect time.  

  The best thing about this whole darkness, sad, depressed, funky, blech, place...Is that if your trusting Him, your gonna get out.  If you place your everything in Jesus, He will get you the heck out of there.  It may be a slow gradual transition, or you just may wake up one day and look outside your window to see the sun for the first time in months (or years even)!  You will feel renewed, re-energized, ALIVE!!!!  It will be like you were never in that pitty, gross, sad, place to begin with.  Everything will be illuminated and seem brighter and cheery.  
 
 In the words of Mrs. Doubtfire "Hold on!  Help is on the way dear!"  It will get better.  You won't always feel that way.  It feels rough right now, but just wait, oh wait till you get there.  I am at the top, looking down right now, and the view is great!  The best part of being at the top, is being able to see down and understand why you had to climb so hard.

Waiting for you at the top, 
Halei <3

Monday, March 21, 2011

Just a lil bit.....

Hi.  I changed the name of my blog.  It's now Halei A Little Bit.  Which has a funny story behind it....Would you like to hear?  I promise you will not be disappointed. :)

Once upon a time when I was still a wee lass, people would ask me what my name was.  Since, at that point in time I could speak, I would reply "Halei Alittlebit Clark".  Some of you are thinking "Oh gee, I really hope Caryn was not loopy enough to give that poor girl such a wacky middle name"  Fear not, she was perfectly sane, as proved on my birth certificate where it says Halei Elizabeth Clark.  However, Elizabeth is a really hard name to pronounce for someone whose only 2 years old.  The End.

Great story right? I told you I was going to bring it in the story department!!! (In real life, I am gangster leaning as I say this)  But, the point is that there was something in who I called myself at that point that still rings true.  I am not just one solid mass of consistency.  I am eclectic.  If I were a living room, the decorations would consist of a giant purple couch, a cow print chair with a little flowery ottoman, an assembly of garden gnomes arranged in a playful manner upon the mantle, a table made out of one of those giant spools that could hold enough string to sew a pair of pants for everyone in China, and some really legit porthole windows (because if we're being honest, porthole windows are SOOOO COOOL!)....see what I'm saying?  There are so many facets to who I am that just don't make sense when you put them all together...but it's who I am.

A little bit  of everything <3

I'm Halei Elizabeth Clark.
I'm a little bit crazy.
I'm a little bit too honest.
I'm a little bit shy.
I'm a little bit peculiar.
I'm a little bit naive.
I'm a little bit mischievous.
I'm a little bit creative.
I'm a little bit awkward.
I'm a little bit scatter-brained.
I'm a little bit misunderstood.
but,
I'm a whole lot of me.

and that is better than anything else I could ever be.